ROAR!
Monday, July 31, 2006
So today after my lesson, i finally get the chance to hang out with my gang as we went to tampines after our lesson today. Since our classes end at 6 pm, Lian huat , gerald, donald, soon heng, QY and i went tour around tampiness. I really hope that i am the same class as them but then it cant be done because they are multi media and i am networking. So after touring around tampiness till 6.30pm donald and i took 10 home and i drop off at katong hopping to get my dinner there but then i couldnt find what i want. So i went to seven eleven and bought instant noodle to eat.
But on my way home from katong to marine drive police post traffic light, i managed to see ling yan who is standing across of the traffic light. I just wave to her and i proceed on my way home. Man this is the bad thing which happen today. My ankle is aching again for today. i dont know what happen but it just start to ach. and i cant even walk home properly. Hope that this doesnt affect my medical checkup for ns.
Hai... i think i really changed a lot. Now i like to keep things in myself. I dont like to tell anyone about my troubles except for 1 or 2 people whom i treat them as brothers. Hai... it really hard to keep those problems without telling it out. Somehow i think that i start to feel a little lonely... But i think that that is what im suspose to be expected in the first place.
"I work for my own and I live for my own. I only trust both my hands and not others." i have to keep telling myself that so that i work alone next time.
So as for my first pirioty is to make myself thin again. Others can wait.
Ok then gtg
Peace out
Ci Qing roared at
Anyway it a new week to start with. Must smile and go school. Go sianz cha bo liao haha it is as if i will do that.
ok then got to go
peace out.
Ci Qing roared at
Monday, July 24, 2006
Firstly went to my new class and saw a few of my classmates from the previous class. only 13 out of 40 of them are in the same class as me.
So during the first lesson we just do nothing because the server has not install the basic software which is needed for our lesson. So basically my class just slack throughout the wholeday.
But for me i had a rough day today. Firstly i enter this CO-OP shop, which sells food and accessory, and i get scolded for nothing. I wanted to take this landlard from the counter and there is a queue. But the bottomline is that i didnt even want to cut the queue and there is this guy who said this.
"Kan Ni Na cut queue chao chee bye." And i was like what the hell i didnt even enter the queue at all. So i just turn my head and give a glare at that person. Then he just turned away. Erm so am i in a wrong here or what? But hey if a person can scold vugar words at the other person just because he going to cut queue, isnt that person a bit too childish for this? Like what just by cutting queue you can take a knife and killed that particular person? This has really happen before like last year when a guy get killed because he quarrel with a guy who cut his queue at the singapore pools. Hai... stupid people with stupid incidents do stupid stuff... that all i can say.
So today i skipped my last lesson because i need to rush for my project which Adam doesnt allow me one more day to do his project. Cause he's going to put my group with consist of serene, the leader, valerine and i through to the competitor as he regsister our name today.
So i rushed my proposal till 4pm and i dont have the mood to go back to my next lesson which started at 3. so i just skip that class and go home straight.
Hope that tomorrow will be a better day.
peace out
Ci Qing roared at
Sunday, July 23, 2006
| Your EQ is 147 |
 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. |
Start School tomorrow, somehow i dont even feel like going back. i not in my previous class anymore. all my friends had went to multi media except for me i go to networking. but it is a good thing i can start all over again.
Yesterday i recieved the ns letter to ask me to register. Look like i need to go to ns already next year. When i recieved the ns letter, i was like "Cool, Finally i can be in the uniform group again. Hope that once i go in there, make lots of friends and come out to find a stead." haha but of course i going to poly also.
My body has been aching all over. That is because i been training myself. Doing sit up 200 times per day and do about 40 pumping between 200 sit up. so every 100 times of sit up i do 40 push up. Now my arms are tired and my stomach is like going to tear. but i'm cool i still can manage it. I just want to cut down my tummy fats and make my shoulder broader.
Hope that within one month, i will see the effects.
Ok than got to go
Peace out.
Ci Qing roared at
Saturday, July 22, 2006
(Song Title everybody free (to wear sunscreen by baz luhrman))
Wear sunscreen. If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term
benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis or
reliable then my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice....now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, nevermind, you won't understand the power and
beauty of your youth until they've faded, but trust me in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of
yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous
you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future, or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra
equation by chewing bubblegum.
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind: the kind that blindsides
you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts; don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is
long, and in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive; forget the insults. (if you succeed in doing this, tell me how).
Keep your old love letters; throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people
I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives; some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of Calcium. Be kind to your knees -- you'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll
divorce at 40; maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.
Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either. Your choices are half
chance, so are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body: use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or what other people think of it; it's the
greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance...even if you have no where to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions (even if you don't follow them).
Do not read beauty magazines; they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents; you never know when they'll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings: they're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in
the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but what a precious few should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps
and geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you
were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.
Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths: prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old; and when you
do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children
respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse,
but you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you are 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia;
dispensing it is a way of wishing the past from the disposal--wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts, and
recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me, I'm the sunscreen.
Ci Qing roared at
Thursday, July 20, 2006
FINALLY AND I MEAN FINALLY I got my pc back. I managed to restore my cpu to the way i wanted. After spenting 2 days of formatting and changing part from sim lims i finally get it work today.
And i need to hurry my project. About of this computer down, which was in my room, i couldnt do my sun java project at all. And guess what my backup is gone too. So i have to redo the whole thing again. Hai...
So i just finish installing the drivers and all the program which is needed for my computer. Cant download anything yet because this CPU is still not stable yet. Need to test it out for a few more days before i actually let it download things like anime or movies.
So during the installation of all my programs. I watch a show called "Fast and Furious Toyko drift". It was a cool movie to watch i rate it 4.5 out of 5 again. I didnt give another 0.5 is because there too many hot chicks in that show and i dont have a hot chick beside me. Sob sob. haha but overall you all should caught it when it came out of the cinemas. The show was damn nice and thrilling.
There some touching part in the movie and there's some part where they teach u morales.
For example for this conversation when a guy talk to another guy.
"Who you choose around you, make you know who you are. Look at all those people down there. They follow the rules for what? They letting fear led them. Life simple. You made a choice and you dont look back."
After i heard this, i've been thinking what have i been doing along after my break up with my ex? It should be time to move on and wake up from my sobber. I believed that i will find another girl out there someday somehow but i wont get it too soon. Need to enjoy life being alone first.
So back to my project now i suspose. Hope that i can complete it by monday. Please let me complete. No more sleep for me liao hai.... Even though it is my holidays now!!!!!
Peace out.
Ci Qing roared at
i have to block out thoughts of you so i don’t lose my head
they crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
dropping little reels of tape to remind me that i’m alone
playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
there's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
an ounce of peace is all i want for you. will you never call again?
and will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
and will you never try to reach me?
it is i that wanted space
hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you
hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
i’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
the one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing i won’t touch again
in a sick way i want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
while i was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
you never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
you made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
so i’ll drive so fucking far away that i never cross your mind
and do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you
hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
and with a sad heart i say bye to you and wave
kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that i had made
and like a baby boy i never was a man
until i saw your blue eyes crying and i held your face in my hand
and then i fell down yelling “make it go away!”
just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
and then she whispered “how can you do this to me?”
hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you
hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
Ci Qing roared at
Monday, July 17, 2006
Must thanks lian huat friend for helping me to see which parts for forming my cpu. But in the end i didnt use ur idea sorry about that. Cause i need 2 ide port on the motherboard to support my 250 ide hardisk which i bought one may. I finally got a motherboard which can play high end games and do my work fast. i also bought a high end graphic card which cost about 308 dollars. A ram and a casing. In the end i spent about 865 dollars on the cpu itself. Now i can self declare that im bankrupt haha.
Bought the cpu with lian huat and gerald today. Felt very bad that they had to wait for me instead. But in the end we have a fun day at sim lim walking in circles and circles.
But the bad thing is that i cant use my new cpu now because i dont have the operating system cd... sob sob... need to wait till wednesday before i can get back my cd. Hehe now my house is offically a lanshop with 3 working system. so who want to buy this cpu which i using now. No hardisk and cd rom included.
Ci Qing roared at
Sunday, July 16, 2006
But who cares about present lol. So Jane came today. heng har lucky she came or not i will be alone for the rest of the day.
And guess what i have a bad hair day today ..... sian .... so basically today we chat alone, and they wished me happy birthday of course. thanks chang boon and jane for wishing me happy birthday.
So after watching both yong rui and chang boon's concert, we decided to go to parkway but chang boon went home first to settle his broadband thingy. And jane went back with us to parkway and she went home also. So only left yong rui and i. So we both decided to shop parkway for a while since we had nothing to do.
So ended up as usual playing our trademark sport "POOL". This is the first time i felt so bore about pool and guess what we played within 1 hour and we left.
Of course i lost to yong rui yet again but my double has improve significatly. wao i bet i spelled that wrongly and i'm lazy to check the dictionary. haha. So after playing pool at classic. i decided to get this mendy burger at the night market. quite nice and there is alot of ingredient in there. All i could say is perfect. It was so tasty but the price is only at 2.50. The important thing is that it make me full. haha
So once again my birthday is over. I shall be 19 tomorrow, act like a 19, think like a 19, and of course stay single for the moment because life is short. Finding a partner means that there is two metal chain on my legs chaining me down to the floor and not doing what i want to do. In short terms means freedom.
So that it for today. Thanks for my friends who accompany me today
Peace out
Ci Qing roared at
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Hai im sitting on the eve on my birthday looking at the computer and turning back to see the moon. Somehow the moon seems tasty to me haha. But one thing just came in my mind. and that is no matter how high the moon is. It is always alone. Am i going to be like that or am i able to find another partner that can spent her life with me.
Birthday wishes... hmm... if they even come true. but if they really come true then there will be no more suffering child in this world. hai...
Man feel quite sad for yong rui... his father death anniversary was the same as my birthday. hai. but hey yong rui... keep strong man... and thanks for the birthday song u post on ur blog ...
i still remember last year i spent my very 18 years old birthday with ....
And my wish is to be able to become thin, have high grades in my results, find a girl, and the last one is to be able to see her again.
ok then peace out
Ci Qing roared at
Thursday, July 13, 2006
So yesterday went out with lian huat to see about my motherboard at sim lim. So we go every floor to get the flyers first before we went to sunshine plaza to get my game. So when we went to the fourth floor, i asked lian huat what floor was it. But lian huat didnt answer me but the lady who gave out the flyer did. And i was like shocked. Then lian huat kept saying that the lady was looking at me or something. And it damn true when i turn back, the lady was till looking at me. lol.
So when i was on the way to sunshine plaza i saw yong rui. He was eating with his friend at a hawker centre near NAFA, which is his school. Of course we greeted each other and i just walk pass without saying much. So i went in to search for my game and i happen to find this time consuming game called havest moon. So after buying it i came out to walk to sim lim again to have my dinner there with lian huat. And again i meet yong rui haha. This time we had a small conversation and we went seperate ways after that.
So lian huat and i had fish and chips. The good thing is that we had our so called "dinner" at 3.00pm and the funny thing is that it can actually last me till today afternoon haha. When we had out so called "dinner" we happen to saw out sun cot teacher who is adam and chester and we were so shock. as soon as we found out, we leave the food court and went to back to sim lim again. Managed to find a good deal of cpu which cost me about 1058 dollars i dont know whether should i get it or not. but definitely next week will be the week when i buy my cpu.
After that we went to bugis to watch the pirate of the caribbean2. Quite a funny show and i will definitely rate it 4.5 out of 5. the other 0.5 is gone because of it ending. haha
And btw the lyrics i created it wasnt my opinion.
Ok then got to go peace out.
Ci Qing roared at
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Title: decision
If you have a gun,
Would you go out the street to kill
or protect urself
If you have the money,
Would you spent wildly
or donate it.
If i have to make the choice,
I would take the gun and shoot everyone.
And spent money wildly.
If you have a friend,
Would you befriend with him
or you prefer to be alone.
If you have a girlfriend
Would you love her,
or just have her because u want sex.
If i have to make the choice,
I would rather be alone
And just have sex with the girl.
If you have a met a stranger,
Would you smile,
or just walk away and leave.
If you have the chance to study
Would you continue study
or waste it to be a punk.
If i have to make the choice,
I would just walk away
And be a punk.
Anything can be make by ur friends
but decision can only be made by ur own.
Friends can only give advice.
Ci Qing roared at
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
So yesterday i started to find information for my project but i still cant find any information. I dont even know how to start it. Hai hope that serene who is the team leader give me an order so i can start.
So basically that is it for yesterday. And for today, i wasnt able to do alot of things. I had food poisioning. So beside laying on the bed, vomitting and shitting, there is nothing else i can do. Seriously hate this feeling. I lost count of how many times i went to the toilets. And yong rui show me this disturbing website which is like what the hell... A girl in panties suddenly shit when she was sleeping. This is the webby http://www.sonikbyte.com/blog/?p=97 And the picture is there. Thanks yong rui you moron for showing this website to me while i having diahorrea. haha just joking only you know as usual.
So sad days have over. Today i no longer care about the past. To admit i'm not good in relationship. It's better for me to stay free and funky. do whatever i like or whatsoever. ok then there nothing to type anymore
Peace out
Ci Qing roared at
Monday, July 10, 2006
Guess who shoe was it
See no evil hear no evil. Yar you saw it i was infront of the girls toilet wanting to peep in lol.
This is the guys toilet and guess what Roy, who was my senior, came out after we took this picture and we all were laughing
My friends were hanging around and chilling out.
What for stand there come in and sit down lar. Illegal gathering sia!!!
So that all we have took in the workplace really miss them.
Ci Qing roared at
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Here are some photo which i took during the last day of attachment which was yesterday.
Hehe all cool guys standing in a row. But i look the best among them lol. just joking just joking.
This is the photo where all the students gather together. Sadly JJ wasnt there to take the picture with us because he had an appointment with the dentist.
There will be more photo coming up and hope that i will blog pretty soon. if not that means i busy with my own stuff like preparing for my school work or something.
Ci Qing roared at
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
I living my life wandering around
Facing each day with courage
But still i have no where to go to.
I have no aim nor goal,
Everything seems senseless to me.
But still i want to tell you what a state i'm in
How much i miss you.
And the truth is that i miss you.
I lost track of time.
It seems like only yesterday,
You were there beside me when i hug you.
i know i've done u wrong
But still i want to tell you what a state i'm in.
How much i miss you.
And the truth is that i miss you.
And I'm tired, I should not have told you all those hurtful things
I seriously regretted and i know there no turning back.
But still i want to tell you what a state i'm in.
How much i miss you.
And the truth is that i miss you.
So if i manage to meet you face to face,
I would cry in front of you in your arms.
And tell you how much i seriously miss you and how much i want you back.
Ci Qing roared at
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Hey to me friends are nothing to me seriously. if they want to be friends with me im ok with it. if they dont it doesnt matter as it wont affect me a bit. to be a lonely is ok to be with friends is ok with me. life still go on. i know this might change my way of thinking but who cares.
"Friends are just a stepping stone to reach higher heights.
To climb up higher and get higher, friends are necessary."
What does it mean, do i get friends just to climb higher heights or just be friends with them because i want to share my complaints with them? hmmm who cares anyway. One person thinking cant be changed by others. And btw i despise on people who look down on ite students.
peace out
Ci Qing roared at
Niceken
About myself
Age:20
Birthday: 16/07/87
Status:In a Relationship
School: NYP
Misses
"Rabbit"
My handphone
ITE Simei Colleage East
Parents
Sistas
Friends
Wishlist
Tokyo swatches
New shoe
Shirt
Glasses
She be my side
Score well in exam
About myself
Age:20
Birthday: 16/07/87
Status:In a Relationship
School: NYP
Misses
"Rabbit"
My handphone
ITE Simei Colleage East
Parents
Sistas
Friends
Wishlist
Tokyo swatches
New shoe
Shirt
Glasses
She be my side
Score well in exam