Saturday, June 03, 2006
another week has pass for work. i'm havent been able to play any games at all. this week is far to busy for me. hai... i've been to my previous character where i keep scolding vugars words out. i keep scolding vugars words till it has become a habit of mine. even siti and lian huat is aware of that too. look like i need to change this habit of mine liao...
Just now went to watch movie with siti at marina square. We wanted to go for job interview but we didnt because the pay is quite low. 1 hour 3.50... hai i just hope that i can find a job near town away.
hai...feeling so empty. This feeling is like a feeling whereby you enter a room and you found out that there is no furitures at all. It's that pathetic. i feel no warm unless i with my friends lian huat, siti, benson and JJ. because they are the one who cares for me for now. hai i just want this feeling to go away as soon as possible.
but if my blog readers is thinking how come i dont want to go find a girl. That is because there is no way i can forget about the past relationship and move on. Even if i tried, something is calling me, holding me back. it seems that i cant forget about her... to make a heart dies is very difficult but once i manage to do that, i will be stronger. Guess that im still that weak and stupid. but what i think kent said is correct.
"when you find a guy, if the guy is stupid, never mind. Just make sure that he is not a bastard." this is what he said to siti. Man if i'm that bad why does she even have to accept in the first place... it making me feel so so miserable for being stupid. but i dont blame her, people have their own thinking. it just that both of our mindset get drifted away. it nobody fault and maybe the breaking up is correct after all. Even though i'm the person who is forcing her to say it out but i think it worth it. after all im stupid and she clever. she deserve much better guys than me. To her im a jerk but to me i think i have done nothing wrong. hai... time to move on. i kept telling myselt that but it doesnt seems to work.
Days gone by. and each day it passes by, i getting more lonely. it just that it will never end at all. maybe i just really just forget what had happen and just forget every single thing that is happen now and start anew.
I need a new life to feel that i really a life.
peace out (2 more days till something bad happen)
Ci Qing roared at
About myself
Age:20
Birthday: 16/07/87
Status:In a Relationship
School: NYP
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